purpose

Statement of purpose? Statement of purpose. I believe this is the most difficult part of the application process. The hardest part is starting to write. Applying to SAIC and SVA, not really spreading myself too thin or getting my hopes too far up there, actually, my hopes aren't really up there at all. I am almost expecting defeat, which my be the cause of my reluctance to complete the applications. I don't know how it effects others, but this awkwardness leaves me with an utter fear that clenches me in the forehead. I don't think i will succeed, so therefore, my mind keeps me from doing anything at all. My first response to this pressure is to go to bed and sleep until it goes away. Sometimes I wish I could fast forward through this part of my life and just wake up 24, entering grad school, in the city of my dreams.

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But on another note, I need to let you know that I am an avid notcot reader. I thought I would share it with you in order to spread the word on this great art/design blog.

architecture

Josh and I got back from chicago yesterday around 3am. I haven't been home long and I am already homesick for Chicago. The city itself is so beautiful, no matter which way you look there are skyscrapers all around. Being from Birmingham, where you can go from one end of the city to the other in 15 mins, Chicago was a complete and utter culture shock. Despite the fact that the weather stuck around -3 degrees a majority of the time we were there, it is my favorite city I have ever visited. (granted, i don't have much to compare it to, still, it was heaven). It was a shock to see people actually know how to drive, which is very uncommon down south. The way drivers handled a five way stop, the way it was supposed to be done, was glorious. While in town we visited Threadless, Bread&Brandy, Borders, and the Sears Tower. However, my favorite of all had be the manifestation of heaven on this earth, the Blick Art Supply. I don't think i stopped drooling over the pastels, paints, canvases, and papers until josh walked me out of the building.

The main reason for this trip was to attend our friend Shawn May's gallery opening. It went incredibly well and he had a great turnout. He seemed very pleased with the outcome of the show and even happier with his new girlfriend 'guacamole". I have to admit, there were pretty adorable, though it seemed Shawn was paying more attention to her more then his guests. aww, young love.


(this is not my photo btw - found on google)




It would be a dream to move up there to chicago next fall and transfer to SAIC and live out my dreams to they're great fulfillment. However, this is not really in my realm of possibility. Josh, my boyfriend, however, has the resources to do the same as I, so most likely he will be there next fall living out our mutual goal. Sometimes I wish he would be happy with the school he's at just so he wouldn't leave; but at the same time, I am so proud of him for being able to do all these things and going for it.